Hello lovely people of xanga :D These past couple of weeks have absolutely sucked. I am so over 2012. Hope you enjoy.
 I don’t know what happened. One moment, you were just another guy I only knew the name of. The next, you were that guy that I fell hard for.  One thing I don't understand is why so many people expect me to be miserable just so they can be happy. I have done that my whole life; doing everything I hate doing just so someone else can be satisfied. Isn't it about time that it's my turn to be happy?  Don’t take her for granted. If she texts you, text her back. If she wants to hang out with you, hang out with her. If she wants to hug you, hug her. If she wants to hold your hand, let her. Just because she’s yours at the moment, doesn’t mean she’ll still be yours in the future. Treat her right or someone else will.  I’ve never understood the reasoning for someone to “move on” from a relationship. It’s not like you are really going to “move on”, you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute of everyday until it finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, with someone who isn’t you, and then you have to remind yourself again.  when people walk away from you, let them go. you shouldn't have to talk them into staying with you, loving you, caring about you, and coming to see you, because if they really cared about you in the first place, they would not be going anywhere.
 I don't want to hurt you, but I don't think I like you anymore. Something inside of me ruins all my relationships. Because whenever I get too close to someone, the feelings always disappear. And after they leave, they always come back.  While I was living "Absense makes the heart grow fonder," he was busy with "out of sight, out of mind." And it killed me to admit to myself that I wasn't what he wanted anymore. And I had to tell myself that it wasn't her fault, and that if this is who he really was, then I don't want to be with him anyways. But I do, so badly. - Shae  I guarantee that you will never break me, because I have been broken to the point of no return. And not even you could hurt me as badly as he did.  It's so much easier to convince yourself you're madly in love with someone when you know nothing about him.  Not every girl wants to be in a relationship. Some just want good company, a guy to vibe with, converse with and laugh with. Not in a rush, start off simple, and let the rest find itself. Having someone to talk to and feeling comfortable around them is beautiful, and it's a good feeling.
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